I haven't. If anything, I am more collared than ever before.
I am left without understanding of my own choices, making me unable to recognize myself. I am accepting of wallowing in this world as a human, to accept my own pitiful emotions...
But I have never been confused by myself.
[and that is where he sits now, pondering his own thoughts and emotions on repeating. running into the same dead ends and roadblocks, unable to organize his own logic.]
No. I don't think so. That's a temporary thing. [...] You just haven't had any opportunity to learn more about yourself for a long time.
... I don't know what's happening to you. It made you do something that you would never do.
[but she thinks of that last little snippet of his thoughts - maybe i should have asked for help - and maybe she's only known him for a couple of days, but she thinks that was something new.]
I don't know if I can accept a help that puts others at such risk. That goes against my principles too.
[when this place is so dangerous, and it's impossible to know who to trust. scien, even if he's willing to reach out a hand, doesn't want to drag someone else into the depths of hades with him.]
Maybe when there are more answers, and if I am still here... I will allow it.
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I don't think it's too late. [...] You've gotten rid of your collar.
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I am left without understanding of my own choices, making me unable to recognize myself. I am accepting of wallowing in this world as a human, to accept my own pitiful emotions...
But I have never been confused by myself.
[and that is where he sits now, pondering his own thoughts and emotions on repeating. running into the same dead ends and roadblocks, unable to organize his own logic.]
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No. I don't think so. That's a temporary thing. [...] You just haven't had any opportunity to learn more about yourself for a long time.
... I don't know what's happening to you. It made you do something that you would never do.
[but she thinks of that last little snippet of his thoughts - maybe i should have asked for help - and maybe she's only known him for a couple of days, but she thinks that was something new.]
You know that you can ask for help, now.
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I don't know if I can accept a help that puts others at such risk. That goes against my principles too.
[when this place is so dangerous, and it's impossible to know who to trust. scien, even if he's willing to reach out a hand, doesn't want to drag someone else into the depths of hades with him.]
Maybe when there are more answers, and if I am still here... I will allow it.