[ well. diluc wishes he were also splayed out on the ground, so good for scien. the feeling of being lost is not... exactly unfamiliar. it resonates in a way, even if it is in no way exact. ]
You were under the influence of the nanites then?
[ there's a small flicker of anger here. but it is controlled. ]
[suddenly there's a surge of violence, a feeling that seems to take even scien off-guard as it's accompanied by surprise - all still crunchy etc etc reliver emotions
but when it disappears, there is only contemplation]
his expression softens, and his feelings tumble toward fond. nostalgic.]
... the family buried at that grave saved me.
They worked in agriculture, and cultivated wheat. They ended a famine that was plaguing the island, and allowed me to make Reliver technology before I starved to death. I owe them a debt.
[ having received so (relatively) little emotional feedback from scien, this experience is a continued surprise to diluc.
...but also, not really. dahut had only spoken of him with exasperated fondness, in the brief time diluc had known him. ]
...I'm sorry that you knew such hunger.
[ as scien now knows, diluc's family owns a prolific vineyard. and while it would be strange to feel guilt for something he is not responsible for, he can still recognize the disparity for what it is. ]
But I also believe he would've been happy to rest in a place you cherished.
... Dahut came to my Institute when he had become a Reliver. Though he was 15 in appearance, he was quite smart. He rose the ranks swiftly, becoming known as a genius second only to myself. Eventually, he properly became Deputy Director.
He's loud, annoying, and gets too involved in my business. He has terrible priorities, and makes my office smell of baked goods when I don't want it. He fusses over things that have nothing to do with our research, and he's a pain.
[ . . . ]
But he's always been motivated by the right things. He has the sense to not sacrifice innocent people for research, and while he's smart enough to keep his head above water—he doesn't allow for rampant cruelty.
He was my successor. In my own timeline, I've already entrusted my life's work to him.
To me, he was the greatest hope our country could have.
[ he's quiet as he absorbs all that, giving it time to breathe and settle. scien can pick up on a bit of natural inquisitiveness, fondness, and a pang of melancholy. ]
He was certainly a force to be reckoned with. Though we were strangers [ not just diluc, but the entire crew ], he immediately did what he could to look after us.
That does not mean I won't inflict it upon others, whether by the harmful gaps in my own logic when dispensing information, or by making choices that do not align with my principles.
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You were under the influence of the nanites then?
[ there's a small flicker of anger here. but it is controlled. ]
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but when it disappears, there is only contemplation]
... no, I did it.
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...If you insist.
[ the words are spoken neutrally. ...you buried his heart. ]
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his expression softens, and his feelings tumble toward fond. nostalgic.]
... the family buried at that grave saved me.
They worked in agriculture, and cultivated wheat. They ended a famine that was plaguing the island, and allowed me to make Reliver technology before I starved to death. I owe them a debt.
[since scien mostly eats... bread....]
It felt fitting, for Dahut to rest with them.
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...but also, not really. dahut had only spoken of him with exasperated fondness, in the brief time diluc had known him. ]
...I'm sorry that you knew such hunger.
[ as scien now knows, diluc's family owns a prolific vineyard. and while it would be strange to feel guilt for something he is not responsible for, he can still recognize the disparity for what it is. ]
But I also believe he would've been happy to rest in a place you cherished.
[ or, was otherwise significant to scien. ]
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[why is it that even now, scien has a larger focus outside himself? he knows his debts, and yet.]
... he knew what he was to me. The entire time.
[people might be confused about their relationship, but they weren't]
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Will you tell me more about him? Or are you sworn to secrecy once more.
[ which, diluc would respect of course. ]
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[ . . . ]
I will. But why?
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[ and because i can no longer ask in person. ]
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He's loud, annoying, and gets too involved in my business. He has terrible priorities, and makes my office smell of baked goods when I don't want it. He fusses over things that have nothing to do with our research, and he's a pain.
[ . . . ]
But he's always been motivated by the right things. He has the sense to not sacrifice innocent people for research, and while he's smart enough to keep his head above water—he doesn't allow for rampant cruelty.
He was my successor. In my own timeline, I've already entrusted my life's work to him.
To me, he was the greatest hope our country could have.
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He was certainly a force to be reckoned with. Though we were strangers [ not just diluc, but the entire crew ], he immediately did what he could to look after us.
[ and while scien is... scien... ]
...You share the same convictions, then.
[ you wouldn't have chosen him, otherwise. ]
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...It seems more that he chose you.
[ both ways can be simultaneously true.
okay goodnight forreal ]
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[good night sweet omo]
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...Are you prepared for tomorrow?
[ sends this less than 30min before space "court" starts yeehaw ]
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[scien.]
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Likewise.
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I've decided my fate already, so it matters little to me what they say.
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Do you seek reprieve?
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That does not mean I won't inflict it upon others, whether by the harmful gaps in my own logic when dispensing information, or by making choices that do not align with my principles.
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[ that all sounds quite human, to me. ]
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there's a trickle of amusement then]
I think I've enjoyed a god's privilege for long enough. But I'd rather you say it.
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[ there's a very brief pang of emotion here. a memory that feels something like the sensation of rain. ]
And it is human to wish to avoid that.
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The heavens are also cruel and impartial, though people like to tell themselves otherwise.
But I understand the sentiment behind what you say.