That is true. But there's also reasoning, outside emotions.
...We know these killers [ and attempted killers ] have been manipulated to act against their natural instincts. Meaning, this wasn't her choice, and the blame should be shifted to those who would use her as a puppet.
[ for a moment his brow creases, the only signal to his anger, but it passes and he resumes his usual, neutral expression. ]
But I find it's best not to dwell on these things, and instead figure out a better way forward.
[ even if he really could hold a grudge forever (canon) ]
...Nevermind that. Dahut told me a bit of your experiment. I'm not sure whether to thank or admonish you, but I suppose I'm only in the position to do one.
You don't have to do either. I've figured out what happened, but I mostly did it for myself. Editing memories is too dangerous, given what we're currently comprised of, so I'll probably be dismantling the machine tomorrow.
[ diluc snorts. oh scien... if only he'd been here for memshare week. sometimes u vent for 3 whole years and decide it's okay to laying off the venting actually. ]
You put yourself at risk for the benefit of the group. And, you're now ensuring our safety.
[his stomach isn't very big since he barely eats. so he will just settle for this cookie and no more
but scien raises a brow]
I didn't expect that to take you off guard. You weren't thinking that everyone was being gentle with a supposed maniac, were you?
[some people were already figuring out that scien wouldn't do that to dahut by choice but like... that didn't mean they were considerate to him or his assistant at all. and he didn't expect them to be]
[ weak. but no he figures his weird reliver body has weird dietary restrictions. something something ]
...Ah.
[ he looks like he's visibly reaching back in his memory... literally every execution has involved someone he cared about, so. he'd almost forgotten the general mood of what that first saturday in the brig was like. ]
[no scien IS weak he is just a lil guy (citation needed)
but scien just nods]
I don't blame anyone. It is hardly the most human malice I have ever received. For the most part, everyone was simply bewildered and looking for answers that I could not give in that state, out of my mind as I was.
[but that meant they were more focused on factual information collecting]
... so I appreciated a different line of questioning. One that could preserve Dahut's memory in a way that he would've liked.
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[and because he was in same situation, but reverse position - ]
Though I wouldn't say it's wrong. Just something else to navigate in your relationship.
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That is true. But there's also reasoning, outside emotions.
...We know these killers [ and attempted killers ] have been manipulated to act against their natural instincts. Meaning, this wasn't her choice, and the blame should be shifted to those who would use her as a puppet.
[ for a moment his brow creases, the only signal to his anger, but it passes and he resumes his usual, neutral expression. ]
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[though scien thinks that he's probably biased, as the first controlled killer]
I'd also be pretty annoyed with everyone who didn't let her end things how she wanted on Saturday to begin with.
[to
be honest,]
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[ sooooo irate! ]
But I find it's best not to dwell on these things, and instead figure out a better way forward.
[ even if he really could hold a grudge forever (canon) ]
...Nevermind that. Dahut told me a bit of your experiment. I'm not sure whether to thank or admonish you, but I suppose I'm only in the position to do one.
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[but he allows it. instead he just shrugs.]
You don't have to do either. I've figured out what happened, but I mostly did it for myself. Editing memories is too dangerous, given what we're currently comprised of, so I'll probably be dismantling the machine tomorrow.
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You put yourself at risk for the benefit of the group. And, you're now ensuring our safety.
So some degree of gratitude is in order.
[ but maybe not too much. scien is still scien. ]
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Those are my principles. You can save your gratitude for someone looking for it.
[scien doesn't think that it has anything to do with him.... he is just a guy who does whatever he wants]
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[ why is he always like this. diluc just ignores him, picks up pastry and passes it over since it looked like he was deliberating earlier. ]
This one is quite good.
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he'll eat it because he's offered and not hard to please
and he nods his agreement. tasty.]
Have you gotten settled?
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As much as one can with all the errant flesh around this place.
[ why? is there so much meat? he will ask this in every pc i've started. ]
...It helps to have good company.
[ he is genuinely fond of most everyone in the gy and it shows on affection week. ]
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[even though scien really thinks he could go for another lab]
How fortunate for you.
[to have... company or whatever...]
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And for you.
[ don't be rude. the people here are nice. ]
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[it's affection week and scien doesn't even dislike most people in the gy anymore
but he's not going to pretend he's a cozy person]
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he nods. ]
Fair enough.
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Though you're also more sentimental than expected, or is that the weekly oddity affecting you?
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What gave you the impression I wasn't?
[ this is a joke because he's self-aware he is a lineface most weeks of the month. but wow admitting he is sentimental... could only happen on w4!! ]
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[though scien does seem to take a moment to think after, glancing off to the side.
he amends:]
Well, almost everything.
[their last conversation in the brig does stick out in scien's memory]
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[ it doesn't bother him. ]
Almost?
[ nudges a cookie at him to see if he'll eat it, too. ]
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[he says
but still takes the cookie]
I still remember you asking me about Dahut the night before I died. Given how out of my mind I'm sure I seemed, it's significant.
[it was sentimental in a way he didn't hate]
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What's your limit?
[ just keeps feeding him. affection week!
but he does pause and look a little surprised. he hadn't thought it had left an impression. ]
...I see.
[ SORRY HE JUST LEAVES OFF THERE he's like :O ]
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[his stomach isn't very big since he barely eats. so he will just settle for this cookie and no more
but scien raises a brow]
I didn't expect that to take you off guard. You weren't thinking that everyone was being gentle with a supposed maniac, were you?
[some people were already figuring out that scien wouldn't do that to dahut by choice but like... that didn't mean they were considerate to him or his assistant at all. and he didn't expect them to be]
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...Ah.
[ he looks like he's visibly reaching back in his memory... literally every execution has involved someone he cared about, so. he'd almost forgotten the general mood of what that first saturday in the brig was like. ]
...No, I suppose they wouldn't be.
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but scien just nods]
I don't blame anyone. It is hardly the most human malice I have ever received. For the most part, everyone was simply bewildered and looking for answers that I could not give in that state, out of my mind as I was.
[but that meant they were more focused on factual information collecting]
... so I appreciated a different line of questioning. One that could preserve Dahut's memory in a way that he would've liked.
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reaches out to hold his paw. ]
I see.
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scien tilts his head, slightly confused, but allows it because it's affection week]
I'm not exactly fragile, you know...
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