[ it's not quite confusion or disbelief or wonder. it's not a concept she's never considered. it's more like she's saying it to try and roll the thought around in her head like a water wheel. ]
If I left him there, he definitely would've died. His heart wasn't beating.
Since I intervened, he rallied enough so that his last moments could be spent trying to get to his lover. Even though I thought he would most likely die before he even reached her.
[all those things are true. so many things were stacked against yves.
but.]
But yes. I want him to live. I want him to be well and healthy and stupid, even if I never saw him again.
I don't harm good men. [a beat] I don't harm most people, really. It has always been my intention to preserve life. What they think of me matters little.
[scien will go the extra mile for yves, that's true. there is a personal tie there. but scien's intention to give salvation to others is all-encompassing, even though his personality is horrible.]
I was. Someone came to my aid, though I didn't expect it. I intend to continue my work, one way or another.
[ she thinks saving and not harming are two different things. he could very well leave people alone, for as much as he seems to not care for them. things start to make a little more sense to her.
does she fully understand scien? no. does she want to? debatable, but it's harder to dislike him now. ]
It won't be difficult to rebuild what you lost to that fire?
It will be difficult to get fully back online, but it is nonetheless necessary. People still die to the curse each day, and our Institute is the only hope they have of continuing on.
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[ it's not quite confusion or disbelief or wonder. it's not a concept she's never considered. it's more like she's saying it to try and roll the thought around in her head like a water wheel. ]
Even though you said he'd likely still die.
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Since I intervened, he rallied enough so that his last moments could be spent trying to get to his lover. Even though I thought he would most likely die before he even reached her.
[all those things are true. so many things were stacked against yves.
but.]
But yes. I want him to live. I want him to be well and healthy and stupid, even if I never saw him again.
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[ if he was stupid but attracted enough of scien's interest and attention for him to care for him to live. ]
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[he wants that to be clear. who yves was aside from that is slightly more incidental. sort of.]
... but he is a good man. Quintessentially good. Altruistic, kind, and clever.
The type of person who is fated to oppose me.
[and yet, despite this, scien is so entirely aware he would choose to save yves every single time]
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[ whether that's an objective or subjective classification. whether or not there is a debt they need to repay. ]
Scien, were you alive before you woke up on this ship?
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[scien will go the extra mile for yves, that's true. there is a personal tie there. but scien's intention to give salvation to others is all-encompassing, even though his personality is horrible.]
I was. Someone came to my aid, though I didn't expect it. I intend to continue my work, one way or another.
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does she fully understand scien? no. does she want to? debatable, but it's harder to dislike him now. ]
It won't be difficult to rebuild what you lost to that fire?
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It will be difficult to get fully back online, but it is nonetheless necessary. People still die to the curse each day, and our Institute is the only hope they have of continuing on.
[so it's not a matter of 'if' but 'when'....]
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[ which means she believes he'll get it done if they ever get off this ship.
it's a when to him, but it's still an if to her. ]
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I limit my focus to accomplish what's necessary, and nothing more.
[he really means it when he says that what other people think of him isn't all that relevant to him]
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What's necessary isn't always the same for everyone.
[ it's more of a statement than an argument. ]
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What is necessary for me is to combat the so-called curse of my country.
Nothing more than that.
[he doesn't put even an ounce of energy into being (checks notes) tolerable as a human being]