[ Yuri is more glad that Scien is eating something other than bread, but she feels happy about him eating her cookies too. It makes her smile. ]
If you say so.
[ She seems to be in deep thought for a moment. ]
Um, Scien. I'm really thankful of the accomodations that you were thinking about making for me and were willing to hire me. It made me really happy... but when the end comes, I will go to a different place.
You've spent more than enough time being diligent for the sake of others. Go be selfish and spend the next few decades doing things for yourself until you die of old age.
... I admit, I was always selfish before I came to the ship. The reason why I wanted to do things for everyone here was because I wanted to return their kindness. For how much impact everyone had on me here... I wanted to do the same. Perhaps it's because... I'm finally in an environment where it's not solely every person for themselves. Even if it wasn't to be kind, I appreciated every single gesture that I viewed as kind, that I didn't expect from anyone.
[ But she thanked Scien enough about that, really. ]
Dying of old age... I would really like that. I never fathomed that it could be a possibility for me.
... I don't believe wanting to live is selfish. Similarly, I don't have enough time in the world for every person who is only self-serving. There is something fine in striking a balance and as far as I'm concerned, you've more than paid your debts.
[a beat.]
Well, the only person who can truly decide that is you.
[if we're all going to be on an arc of helping yuri choose for herself]
Go live peacefully. If a communication system opens up between worlds, or I feel like inventing one, use it to let me know if you need anything in the future.
There is no expiration date on my offer—even if you do not come with me, if there is anything you may need, ask it and I will grant it.
[ There's really no doubt that Scien would do such a thing, but Yuri still feels bewildered. ]
Scien... I really can't thank you enough for all that you would do for me. It's... so much. It may not feel like it for you, but this... it's a lot. Even though I said I wouldn't be going with you...
for the man who granted salvation for others because he was bored, this feels like absolutely nothing at all. his word is something that isn't given easily or broken lightly, but for now, there's nothing tangible he's giving her.
the emotions confuse him slightly, but he only tilts his head.]
My favor is earned, not given.
I no longer consider what you deserve to be contingent on what you can provide for me. I will accept your feelings... but save your gratitude for when I truly provide for you.
[ Even if there is nothing tangible, just the thought of someone even saying that they'd do something for her... is a lot. This is what happens when her standards are skewed and she's been bullied by society for years. ]
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... Then which one would you like to eat...?
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Did you prepare any of these yourself?
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[ The little lumpy shortbread cookies. Tastes great though. ]
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well then he'll just wordlessly eat the cookies first]
I'll pick at the rest as I feel hungry.
[but he'll acknowledge where the extra effort went into]
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If you say so.
[ She seems to be in deep thought for a moment. ]
Um, Scien. I'm really thankful of the accomodations that you were thinking about making for me and were willing to hire me. It made me really happy... but when the end comes, I will go to a different place.
[ She thought about it so hard. ]
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[he sounds about 0% surprised. he'll finish eating one of the cookies, and then raise a hand to tap against her forehead.]
You got the nerve to ask? Or did someone offer?
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I... had to ask, because I know that they would never ask first.
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Why.
Isn't it that man you've been attached to? I didn't think he'd be so shy.
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[ But she would have been super happy if she was personally invited first. Alas. ]
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Well, it's not a bad growth point for you.
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He's very stern about me making choices for myself and taking initiative. So I will get better about them...
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That's good.
[genuinely]
You've spent more than enough time being diligent for the sake of others. Go be selfish and spend the next few decades doing things for yourself until you die of old age.
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[ But she thanked Scien enough about that, really. ]
Dying of old age... I would really like that. I never fathomed that it could be a possibility for me.
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[a beat.]
Well, the only person who can truly decide that is you.
[if we're all going to be on an arc of helping yuri choose for herself]
Go live peacefully. If a communication system opens up between worlds, or I feel like inventing one, use it to let me know if you need anything in the future.
There is no expiration date on my offer—even if you do not come with me, if there is anything you may need, ask it and I will grant it.
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Scien... I really can't thank you enough for all that you would do for me. It's... so much. It may not feel like it for you, but this... it's a lot. Even though I said I wouldn't be going with you...
[ She's about to cry again. ]
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for the man who granted salvation for others because he was bored, this feels like absolutely nothing at all. his word is something that isn't given easily or broken lightly, but for now, there's nothing tangible he's giving her.
the emotions confuse him slightly, but he only tilts his head.]
My favor is earned, not given.
I no longer consider what you deserve to be contingent on what you can provide for me. I will accept your feelings... but save your gratitude for when I truly provide for you.
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Is that... just because you feel like it?