well, first of all, scien has his arm back already. he's been here two days and he, too, is performing acts against god. especially given the fact that in the connection of emotionshare—diluc will feel it in full color and clarity.
scien's emotions, no longer a faraway echo replica of human feeling. instead, he watches the memory with full attention, curiosity, and even a slight tone of sombre recognition. perhaps this is part of diluc's mentioned regrets.
[ crawling back here after trying to follow along plot—HELP. SO MUCH IS HAPPENING HERE. congrats on your arm scien, and also your human emotions.
uncongrats on this memory.
diluc frowns, and carefully sets down the pillow that had been in his hands. he can still see traces of fire, hear the crack of the ceiling splitting above. he has to breathe twice before the memory of poison fades from his lungs. ]
...Were those your final moments, before arriving here?
[ there's more he'd like to ask, but this is the most pressing. you and dahut, both... ]
[so not him and dahut both, actually. scien isn't afraid of his own memories, and instead just watches the memory with an idle feeling of 'oh, this again'. though there are still random bursts of faint, faraway fondness whenever he looks at yves. irritation, too! but... well. sometimes your blorbo is just right there.]
Someone saved me moments after.
I was in better shape than he and his lover were, by the end of it all.
[ scien can probably feel the palpable relief from diluc's side (when so many of your friends have already died, or are on the way to death), and perhaps some curiosity as well. it's not a surprise that scien might have friends and acquaintances elsewhere, but he is usually so self-isolating it isn't something exactly expected of him, either. ]
A happy ending, then... Or at least, not an entirely tragic one.
[scien has had exactly 2 friends in 60 years, so diluc's surprise is valid. scien frowns.]
... I do not seek a happy ending for myself. [a clarification. he doesn't care if he ends up well.]
But it's in the middle of repairs. In my timeline, Dahut is the current Director. However... I've discerned a few things since being here, and will be resuming my place shortly.
[ if not for yourself, then those who care deeply for you.
if scien can be selfish about not caring how he ends up, then diluc can be selfish by wanting him to have a better ending. also, it's affection week so he can back this up by placing a hand on his arm. ]
The one who intended to take me is currently hiding away with his lover, slowly decaying from their own reckless choices made for love.
[scien's words are harsh. they're judgmental. that reflects in his emotions too. however... past the judgment, there is still a sense of protectiveness. a whisper of desperation intermingling with fondness.]
So I will need to save him, before I get forced into whatever pitiful show he asks of me.
[sometimes you will just hand of god someone back to life]
[scien will answer the thoughts easily—but even though there are twists of fondness, it doesn't come from personal experience. yves is virtually a stranger to scien in so many ways, even though their fates are a little twisted together.]
I also don't want to be mistaken for an altruist. I'm not a good man.
Courrune chose to save his lover in exchange for the fate of the whole island—I was the one who was going to sacrifice her to resolve the curse. I do not think my choice was wrong.
[ me once again not understanding a single thing about virche!!
but ah, diluc wonders what scien makes of love, if he does not consider affection and good will to be components of it. and while scien does not call himself a good man, diluc can clearly see he is capable of altruistic deeds. ]
I won't insist otherwise.
Though I hardly think you're the worst, either. [ a tilt of his head here. he isn't incapable of selfless behavior, as his memory has just demonstrated.
and as they have discussed elsewhere, scien does not need to be an altruist to do good. (even if right and wrong is not so easily determined here.) ]
...Do you wary of having to make such choices?
[ having to balance the soul of one against many. ]
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well, first of all, scien has his arm back already. he's been here two days and he, too, is performing acts against god. especially given the fact that in the connection of emotionshare—diluc will feel it in full color and clarity.
scien's emotions, no longer a faraway echo replica of human feeling. instead, he watches the memory with full attention, curiosity, and even a slight tone of sombre recognition. perhaps this is part of diluc's mentioned regrets.
but before he can respond, his own memory plays: "Bread is the main food I consume." ]
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uncongrats on this memory.
diluc frowns, and carefully sets down the pillow that had been in his hands. he can still see traces of fire, hear the crack of the ceiling splitting above. he has to breathe twice before the memory of poison fades from his lungs. ]
...Were those your final moments, before arriving here?
[ there's more he'd like to ask, but this is the most pressing. you and dahut, both... ]
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[so not him and dahut both, actually. scien isn't afraid of his own memories, and instead just watches the memory with an idle feeling of 'oh, this again'. though there are still random bursts of faint, faraway fondness whenever he looks at yves. irritation, too! but... well. sometimes your blorbo is just right there.]
Someone saved me moments after.
I was in better shape than he and his lover were, by the end of it all.
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A happy ending, then... Or at least, not an entirely tragic one.
[ your lab... ]
What became of it?
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... I do not seek a happy ending for myself. [a clarification. he doesn't care if he ends up well.]
But it's in the middle of repairs. In my timeline, Dahut is the current Director. However... I've discerned a few things since being here, and will be resuming my place shortly.
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[ if not for yourself, then those who care deeply for you.
if scien can be selfish about not caring how he ends up, then diluc can be selfish by wanting him to have a better ending. also, it's affection week so he can back this up by placing a hand on his arm. ]
...Will Dahut be all right in your timeline?
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... I will look after those in my care. That includes Dahut.
[and if those people want scien to live, then he will.
but after all he's done, and the person he is, he doesn't feel like a person who has an immediate right to happiness.]
He will be fine. I'll be looking after him.
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I'll believe that.
[ if scien says it will be done, then it will be done.
...but he's still curious about the memory, and about him. ]
...Have you made your round of apologies, or is that for after all this?
[ "I’ll have you go to everyone’s graves so that you can apologize to them." ]
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[scien's words are harsh. they're judgmental. that reflects in his emotions too. however... past the judgment, there is still a sense of protectiveness. a whisper of desperation intermingling with fondness.]
So I will need to save him, before I get forced into whatever pitiful show he asks of me.
[sometimes you will just hand of god someone back to life]
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You're more generous than you make yourself out to be.
[ ... ]
You don't believe in reckless choices made for love?
[ i'd say saving him counts as a form of it. the vibes that accompany that question are somewhat wry, but undeniably positive. ]
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[scien will answer the thoughts easily—but even though there are twists of fondness, it doesn't come from personal experience. yves is virtually a stranger to scien in so many ways, even though their fates are a little twisted together.]
I also don't want to be mistaken for an altruist. I'm not a good man.
Courrune chose to save his lover in exchange for the fate of the whole island—I was the one who was going to sacrifice her to resolve the curse. I do not think my choice was wrong.
[I also do not think my choice was right.]
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but ah, diluc wonders what scien makes of love, if he does not consider affection and good will to be components of it. and while scien does not call himself a good man, diluc can clearly see he is capable of altruistic deeds. ]
I won't insist otherwise.
Though I hardly think you're the worst, either. [ a tilt of his head here. he isn't incapable of selfless behavior, as his memory has just demonstrated.
and as they have discussed elsewhere, scien does not need to be an altruist to do good. (even if right and wrong is not so easily determined here.) ]
...Do you wary of having to make such choices?
[ having to balance the soul of one against many. ]