horizontal again i'm sorry this man is really splayed out on the ground looking at the ceiling. his emotions are still in that tight little box bundle, but the strongest one that leaks through is this sense of being lost.]
[a pause, coupled with an echo of feeling. a flash of violence, as if being recalled, and scien's brow furrows, as if trying to navigate through the mess of his own emotions]
My feelings at the time were that I needed to see his heart, and to dissect it for myself. I was curious, and that curiosity led me to deciding that I should perform the operation.
[ . . . ]
But days ago, Dahut had already given me his report. I told him that I'd let him dissect himself, if he wanted. We already solved the design flaws of the Reliver heart.
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Week 0, Saturday
Are you okay to talk now...?
[ it's more polite than asking are you stable or something, because wow. things sure happened. ]
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horizontal again i'm sorry this man is really splayed out on the ground looking at the ceiling. his emotions are still in that tight little box bundle, but the strongest one that leaks through is this sense of being lost.]
Go ahead, if there's something you want to know.
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You said you were "made to" do that to him... What did you mean by that?
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[a pause, coupled with an echo of feeling. a flash of violence, as if being recalled, and scien's brow furrows, as if trying to navigate through the mess of his own emotions]
... I did it. I chose to.
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But why? Why would you choose that?
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that just brings up some confusion in him]
... I wanted to see his heart. That's what I remember.
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yea the lost feeling comes back]
It did at the time.
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... You don't remember how you came to that conclusion?
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[ . . . ]
But days ago, Dahut had already given me his report. I told him that I'd let him dissect himself, if he wanted. We already solved the design flaws of the Reliver heart.
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... Did something cause you to forget that, then?
[ ... she can't help but think about some of those worst fears they had about the nanites. ]
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The reasoning just felt stronger, at the time.