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For whatever you've done in life, I do not.
[ so maybe he deserves to have his life ended after murdering someone who's been close to him for so long. maybe that's right for him. she isn't here to judge that. she could hate him for any atrocities he's done, but she isn't focused on that right now. ]
But for what may happen in death? I know more than most, but that may be where our worlds diverge.
[ so maybe he deserves to have his life ended after murdering someone who's been close to him for so long. maybe that's right for him. she isn't here to judge that. she could hate him for any atrocities he's done, but she isn't focused on that right now. ]
But for what may happen in death? I know more than most, but that may be where our worlds diverge.
It may be. Regardless, I'm not worried about whatever awaits me after this.
If someone takes the risks I do without anticipating eternal damnation or death, then they shouldn't have embarked on the journey for knowledge to begin with.
[sometimes you just need to choose to be the devil for your greater goals]
If someone takes the risks I do without anticipating eternal damnation or death, then they shouldn't have embarked on the journey for knowledge to begin with.
[sometimes you just need to choose to be the devil for your greater goals]
Suffering is for the living.
[ if he wants to receive what he deserves, living is more suitable. ]
If that is where you stand, that is all I need.
[ she just thinks he'd be the biggest annoyance if he became a ghost instead of reaching the afterlife. ]
[ if he wants to receive what he deserves, living is more suitable. ]
If that is where you stand, that is all I need.
[ she just thinks he'd be the biggest annoyance if he became a ghost instead of reaching the afterlife. ]
This headache will pass. It matters little.
[especially since i realized i can give shouxue this old lore hehe but the headache and hangover barely register to scien bc -
with shouxue's next breath, there is a sudden, debilitating pain that rattles throughout her system. it starts in her chest and then spreads throughout her body, setting every nerve aflame as though every inch of her is being stabbed. the pain is constant, no alleviation, just a new burst of it with every breath she takes.
and then the flicker disappears.]
[especially since i realized i can give shouxue this old lore hehe but the headache and hangover barely register to scien bc -
with shouxue's next breath, there is a sudden, debilitating pain that rattles throughout her system. it starts in her chest and then spreads throughout her body, setting every nerve aflame as though every inch of her is being stabbed. the pain is constant, no alleviation, just a new burst of it with every breath she takes.
and then the flicker disappears.]
[twisted.
he watches the memory with his same, passive expression. he isn't the type of person to get emotional in any situation, and this is the same. even if he feels like he has a better understanding of that conversation they had all those weeks ago.
so he brings back an old question:]
You would still return to your home after this tour?
he watches the memory with his same, passive expression. he isn't the type of person to get emotional in any situation, and this is the same. even if he feels like he has a better understanding of that conversation they had all those weeks ago.
so he brings back an old question:]
You would still return to your home after this tour?
[ in some ways, it's better if he isn't emotional about it. she hates pity most of all. she was angry in that memory, all her hidden hurts boiling the surface, but here, almost fully dead in this weird part of the ship, she is more tired than angry. ]
I would die. Were I not here in the belly and had not killed and was not executed, if I did not return, I would die.
You, with your goal of preserving life, would you choose to die?
I would die. Were I not here in the belly and had not killed and was not executed, if I did not return, I would die.
You, with your goal of preserving life, would you choose to die?
You're so certain that your life force is attached to your home? Were you not on the ship without complications?
[he'd seen the memory. the repetition. there’s nothing anyone can ever do to change that. but is this not already a deviation from anything she'd ever expected?]
Our situations cannot be compared. [in terms of what he would choose or not. even if he is more aware of her context, he doesn't believe in constraints.] All I can say is that when I was given a deadline of twenty-three years of age, I defied it. Even though everyone ridiculed my father and grandfather saying that the curse of Death could not be helped.
[he'd seen the memory. the repetition. there’s nothing anyone can ever do to change that. but is this not already a deviation from anything she'd ever expected?]
Our situations cannot be compared. [in terms of what he would choose or not. even if he is more aware of her context, he doesn't believe in constraints.] All I can say is that when I was given a deadline of twenty-three years of age, I defied it. Even though everyone ridiculed my father and grandfather saying that the curse of Death could not be helped.
[ their situations are not the same, but her question is still valid in her mind. ]
The nanites or whatever are interfering.
[ being nerfed is saving her life, probably. ]
There has been some research done in how to free the Raven Consort, but it has not been fruitful yet. My life is not attached to my country. I learned more than what was in that memory not too long ago.
[ scien does not believe in constraints, but all shouxue knows are constraints. ]
Your circumstances may have led you to extend your life, but for now, trying to extricate me from what makes me the Raven Consort would rip my soul apart.
The nanites or whatever are interfering.
[ being nerfed is saving her life, probably. ]
There has been some research done in how to free the Raven Consort, but it has not been fruitful yet. My life is not attached to my country. I learned more than what was in that memory not too long ago.
[ scien does not believe in constraints, but all shouxue knows are constraints. ]
Your circumstances may have led you to extend your life, but for now, trying to extricate me from what makes me the Raven Consort would rip my soul apart.
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