The system harbors no kindness for anyone, but to goad him like that.... when they guessed he murdered because of the anger is foolish.
I do not want to understand what was going through their minds. Even if they wanted to maintain all the focus on him for whatever reason, it won't be a justification.
[the goading, the baiting, and whatever was going on with nodd]
No one denies the blood on his hands. But they all have to know by now that he's also trapped inside his own mind at the exact same time. What point is there, in giving him more to suffer over?
I know, and I do not plan to try, but after everything they went over earlier today, after how much they discussed us, to turn around and go on like that is insulting.
You can ask the Masochist himself when he arrives tomorrow—but he will probably say something like 'that is the least I deserve'.
But I don't anticipate people would willingly choose to try to bait anger like that and then regret it later when they've convinced themselves it's a necessity.
If they knew we couldn't confess, that would have never happened. [ a beat. ] It still could have happened, but perhaps they would be less distracted by it.
Oh, it would've happened regardless. Even without the accusation, the moron would've tried to find some way to sway the vote as if that's a kindness rather than further damnation.
They already know we're here. What use is there in prolonging someone's pain, keeping them trapped in their own mind? Death is unkind, but this is still less of a prison than watching yourself be made a puppet.
[or at least, that's scien's take on it. he was always intending to die rather than sit there confused by a violence that wasn't his. it was too maddening.]
I would rather be myself than anyone or anything else. They may not know how much of a prison it is, but they shouldn't have to know to be less like cruel.
[ she was ready to die, too, even if she's spent most of her life being afraid to die. ]
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I do not want to understand what was going through their minds. Even if they wanted to maintain all the focus on him for whatever reason, it won't be a justification.
[ she also thinks it won't be enough. ]
You were right. It is self-satisfaction.
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[the goading, the baiting, and whatever was going on with nodd]
No one denies the blood on his hands. But they all have to know by now that he's also trapped inside his own mind at the exact same time. What point is there, in giving him more to suffer over?
Even I got irritated.
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[ she sighs and looks away. ]
I doubt Lucien will ever call for me, and I will be glad for it.
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[and why scien's opinion on most of the ship is generally just in the realm of neutrality]
Their selfishness is not something you can remove from their persons.
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I know, and I do not plan to try, but after everything they went over earlier today, after how much they discussed us, to turn around and go on like that is insulting.
Will they realize?
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[he has so little faith in people]
You can ask the Masochist himself when he arrives tomorrow—but he will probably say something like 'that is the least I deserve'.
But I don't anticipate people would willingly choose to try to bait anger like that and then regret it later when they've convinced themselves it's a necessity.
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Do you think if I write we cannot confess that it will make it through whatever filters our messages?
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[scien won't make the effort himself, but he doesn't think it's a foolish choice]
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how did it come to this that he's no longer the person she has the most disdain for... ]
Very well. At the very least, we'll find out what else is blocked.
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Then that, at least, will be something worthwhile to learn.
[he offers her one of the terrible saltine crackers from the canteen]
Don't run yourself into the ground over people you can't yell at directly anyway.
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It's tiresome, and they aren't worth the effort, but it costs them nothing to keep their mouths shut.
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The blue buffoon and the worm certainly made a mess.
[he'll just call them out]
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If they knew we couldn't confess, that would have never happened. [ a beat. ] It still could have happened, but perhaps they would be less distracted by it.
Dion made it clear that wasn't what he wanted.
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They already know we're here. What use is there in prolonging someone's pain, keeping them trapped in their own mind? Death is unkind, but this is still less of a prison than watching yourself be made a puppet.
[or at least, that's scien's take on it. he was always intending to die rather than sit there confused by a violence that wasn't his. it was too maddening.]
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[ she was ready to die, too, even if she's spent most of her life being afraid to die. ]
I'll expect less from them next week.
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[his shitty island is so terrible but it's his shitty island]
Their moments of clarity can be a pleasant surprise.
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I thought I didn't expect much in the first place.
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[to set the sights even.... lower]